Put Down the Cake

Let’s see. I woke up and helped my mom at work and of course got the “Yeah” response back many many hours later like I posted on here. typical.

I made sure to finish things fast at my moms school so I could be home by 12:00 with my sister. I did just that and came home, still no text.

I went on Tumblr and did my thing till about 1:00. Isabelle was in the area and picked me up, and I decided to call him. watever. He was with a friend, I was with isabelle, a desination was of question, a ride was a problem cause isabelle was worried about her gas…lots of obstacles for us to figure out a plan basically.

My friend lorelei ended up picking me up from isabelles house after me and her smoked a bowl. Truth be told.. that girl was way too damn high to be doing any favors for me. & it’s not like she was willing to do it for me either, smh.

Lorelei picked him up too then drove me and my guy back to my house and she left to go to a grad party. Me and him looked through my movies and went upstairs and it was about fifteen minutes until my sister came home. Then he met my sister and they hit it off. He seemed genuinely interested in getting to know her and leaving a good impression. Neither of them knew I was high. So all of their jokes were funnier, and I was craving more attention from him than I would have if I was sober too. That wasn’t good, cause um, he doesn’t give much to begin with. They had no idea I was high though.

He made some excuse to leave saying his mom was nagging him about it or something…when me and him both knew that he wanted to go to the gym and I knew he wanted to go to the gym. It didn’t matter how many times I reminded him this was our last day for a whole month, he still felt obligated to go work out with his friend after he ditched him to come hang out with me. I mean I don’t think he knew that I knew about his excuse because he has yet to really how intuitive and smart I am about these things, but yeah I knew.

Before his excuse though, I tried to get him and my sister to shut up so I could go upstairs alone with him. I did she when she got a phone call, but then she goes “Where did you two run off too? where are you guys?” Um… mind I tell you she is 20. She knows absolutely nothing about girl code and is the most pathetic person I have yet to see when it comes to guys and relationship. Hands down.

At one point we were on my bed and I kept trying to touch him but not touch him. Like kind of casually shove or ya know the usual casual contact things to let him know it was OKAY to touch me. Heck it was okay to grab me. Keep in mind I was high, so I was soo much more willing and wanting for something to happen. He seemed to like when I would shove into him kind of, but I made all of my gestures incomplete for him to do it back. He didn’t. I could tell he liked mine though, Like I swear.. I’m not an idiot. I could tell he was nervous though, wasn’t at his highest comfort and I’m pretty sure that had to do with us only being together for less than thirty minutes I’d say after barely talking to him for 2 full weeks and my sister was down stairs. It was too soon for me to be making gestures, but I knew he had to leave soon. My brain: Now or Never. His brain: Not comfortable with this just yet. And also, he is a guy, and guys like to take the lead. I’m kinda mad that my aggressive nature gets in the way of his sometimes, but what am I to do? I was on a mission. Anyway, he finally said that it was time for him to leave with the same god awful excuse of his.

He said we would have dinner later. My friend Lorelei came over after her day to talk about some stuff and I convinced her, to again, take me to go see him. This time she had to come along and I had to pay for her meal because of her previous favor for me that day. I had caused her to be late to her grad party, and she really drove completely out of her way, no doubt.

We ate at a nice restaurant starting around 10. Me, him and Lorelei talked about sports, twitter, me, him, us, persians, and other funny subjects. Lorelei was supposed to leave half way through to get home and also to let me and him finish the date personally alone, but that just never happened. She stayed through out the whole dinner and I ended up not minding honestly.

She drove him home and we both sat in the back behind her because her passenger seat was wet from her swimming job towel. As we pulled up to his house, I just kept thinking, this is it… this is it.. this is our last goodbye for a wholeee month.

She stopped infront of his house and I go “I’m going to walk you to your door” (listen, I know that isn’t something girls should say, I know my friend shouldn’t have been the one driving him home, I know I shouldn’t have been the one to suggest plans, but I was under an extreme amount of pressure. It was necessary for me to see him and have good communication with him before I left. I needed to know if we were still compatible enough to have a month apart… or even if we were still on the same page.) He goes, ” oh my grandma bruh bruh blah,” some nonsense. So of course I got mad. I just said ” Okay” and he goes “aren’t you gonna move to the front” The front seat was fucking wet prolly but I didn’t fucking care I just needed some distraction, me changing seats or me doing something because of how pissed I was. A quick movement and change or positions after I verbally just got crushed. This all happened within seconds by the way, it all went by really fast. I never stopped and thought about moving seats, I said i’d go to his door, he said some shit, I said okay, and he asked about me changing seats, I aggressively got out to change.fucking.seats! 

As I was trying to slam my door to get the heck outta there, he kinda came outta no where and I felt my door not letting me close it. He went in for a kiss and he got my cheek.. then I looked at him and heard  ”bye”

Lorelei drove off and started screaming. I have never seen Lmac this crazy, everr. She was freaking the fuck out. I wasn’t even freaking out, it all happened so fast I tried to replay it in my head to see what had just happend and process it. And I have Lorelei next to me, squealing and screaming and honking at random cars that pass by us. So it’s needless to say that I didn’t have a chance to take in the moment at the time and concentrate on the quick, yet major occurrence. My god it was hilarious though. She would honk at cars for no god damn reason, ones that were just passing as she was still shaking. She had a view of what happened and we are best friends so I completely understand why she was freaking out, Just not to that degree lol.

I woke up the next morning and was packing when I heard my phone go off

He tweeted me: have a safe trip <3

I literall blushed. I thought about him and everything about him and me and just had complete giddiness with smiles through out my 9 hour flight along with my 4 hour one too. Prolly dreamed about him too.

I’ve thought about him non stop ever since. I want more than anything to be back at home, right where I was, to continue where I left off <3

lol he responded “yeah” to my last text at 7:21 A.M. prolly because he thought i’d be asleep, so he waited to send it then. Sketchhh.

I in fact, was awake. I woke up at 6:00 and went to my moms school to help her switch classrooms. So i recieved the text right when he sent it. I just staired at it and laughed. haaa.

Well. He knows today’s my last day, so the balls in his court, if he wants to hang out, he needs to text me. Like now..

Ugh.